Chapter 33: What’s the Best Thing to do?

*Aloof King and Cool (Acting) Queen*

T/N: I am so sorry everyone. It’s been a bit over 20 days and I am very sorry about that… Well, what happen was: I wanted to update, but then I had to hurricane prep as Hurricane Irma was coming my way (as I live in South florida). And then when Hurricane Irma hit, I lost electricity, and Wi-Fi (obviously). I lost Wi-fi for a while and got it back Friday. Then Saturday morning when I wanted to update,  I ended up losing power once again because some asshole blew up the transformer. No one had power in my neighborhood after that… SO here I am, with a new update. Sorry I suck at translating on time LOL.

Also, thanks for all the help in the previous chapter and thanks for all the loveee.

Edit (9/19/17): Thanks Kiriko and C.T World for the help as always! 

Raws: http://novel18.syosetu.com/n8981cr/33/ 


*POV: Shane*

Recently, I feel that I have had less opportunities to see Leo-sama. Our “Othello Meetings”, which we had every night until a while ago, have become scarce. Instead, a small bouquet of flowers would be delivered on the days when he doesn’t come.

Suddenly losing something that had become a habit affected me a lot.

One day, Elma-sama, one of the concubines that I became friends with since the tea party, came to drink tea in my room.

“Shane-sama, you haven’t been looking well lately.”

“I’m fine, I’m just a little busy with work. Thank you for worrying.”

Well, Elma-sama, who was blushing a little, looked really lovely when she was sipping her tea.  Even though she was only in her teens, for her to have to become a concubine to his Majesty the Emperor, there must have been quite the reason. However, I held favorable feelings towards her because she didn’t expose any of her dark sides at all.

“By the way, I’ve heard some bad rumours in the inner palace but don’t worry about them”

“Bad rumors, is it? I am not entirely disinterested in such things.”

“Oh, is that so? Then, continue on without minding them.”

Aruma-sama, flustered, took back her words, it instead made me curious.

“Please tell me without putting on airs. Elias, do you know what the rumors are?”

I quietly asked Elias, who was holding back, but he hesitantly answered with “no”, “that is…” and other things like that.

“If you know, hurry and answer me.”

“Um, that, it’s just a rumor, so please do not mind it… His Majesty the Emperor seems to have gone back and forth to the inner palace lately, and there are rumors that he had finally gotten bored with the Empress”

Oh, that must have been difficult to say to me.

“So there are such rumors? I don’t really mind, so it’s okay”

In order to restore the atmosphere that had sunk a bit, Elias offered the sweets she (Elma-sama) had prepared.

After eating it, Elma-sama returned to her room, but on the way home…

“I am your friend, so if there is something going on, you can talk to me” She insisted while grasping my hand.

 

At the tea party, I replied that I didn’t mind it, but honestly I had feelings that I couldn’t understand. When I think about Leo-sama’s smile being directed at other people, such things makes my feelings sink further. As I thought, real women were better. Having thought that far, I became dumbfounded with my own contradictory feelings.

So far, I acted cool so that Leo-sama wouldn’t like me, but now I thought that I would like that he liked me more than the concubines. That evening, I thought so much about it that I couldn’t sleep.

 

The next morning, like usual, flowers were delivered. It was to inform me that we wouldn’t be meeting up this evening. When I saw that bouquet of flowers, I couldn’t help but think of his comfortable low voice whispering sweet words to a woman.  I was angry with myself.

Up until now, I had displayed the flowers by the window, but I had them arranged so they wouldn’t stand out. When I looked at the flowers I received, bad thoughts would slip into my mind. It was the first time I had ever held been angry due to the flowers I loved so much.  

 

Nevertheless, today I had to discuss some work with Leo-sama, so I couldn’t help but feel depressed. I had to resolve myself to go into Leo-sama’s office for work even if I didn’t feel like facing him.

As usual, I knocked on the door and entered the room, and there Leo-sama was, leaned back on his chair, looking a bit worn-out. Seeing that figure, I remembered how I wanted to help this person with work. And before I knew it, I realized how my feelings had changed.

With this realization, it gave me answers to the series of emotions that had me overwhelmed since yesterday. Ah, I like this person. That thought gradually calmed me down.

“Oh, Shane, what’s wrong?”

Leo-sama asked me, and I felt my face become red when our eyes met. Without a single word, I left the room out of embarrassment.

 

Even though I didn’t run, my heart was beating violently.  I sat down immediately while my hand held the left side of my chest.  

By becoming aware of my own feelings, the depressed feeling in my heart was lost, but I was becoming increasingly uncertain of what I should do.


T/N: Thanks for reading and I apologize for the delay. Maybe someone else should pick this up instead (because, man, I’m getting lazy, but lol will still try to translate). Sorry about the crappy quality of the chapter. Next chapter is longer too….

Edit: Again, I would like to thank Kiriko and CT World. If you see any mistakes, just say the word and I will fix it! 

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43 comments

  1. libraryrocker · September 17, 2017

    Very glad you are safe! Hope your power stays on…

    Thank you very much for all your hard work!

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  2. cathe · September 17, 2017

    Thank goodness you are safe and sound….. thanks for the chap

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      No problem and thank you! It was a crazy one haha. Thanks for reading as well 😂😁

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  3. susom9117 · September 17, 2017

    Thank you for staying strong and glad you are fine😘😍…Thank you for the chapter 😆😆

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  4. Vei Kyuu · September 17, 2017

    OMG, thank you so much for this. And thank you for being safe ^^ .. this chapter gave me doki doki feels my gahd my heart.. my poor fragile fujoshi heart.. kyaaaa the fluff omg. Gambatte for the next chapter nee!! Stay safe 🙂

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      Aww thank you. I will try my best to keep staying safe as its still a bit crazy where I live. And no problem! Thanks for reading! And yess my fudanshi heart cant take it either. They are just too cute. 😁😂

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  5. hana · September 17, 2017

    Oh dear.. you had a hard time, huh *pats* It is us that should apologize for making you bear the responsibility of translating this lovely piece. I hope you’re still having fun doing this? I don’t know how hard the job of translating exactly because I never do them myself but it must be hard, and not to mention you didn’t get paid for this which makes it harder. So I hope you’re still having fun doing this. Because we’re having fun too reading your translation~ That’s why, don’t be too hard on yourself. I myself don’t really mind a slow update (I know some people might be dissatisfied), so in times when your hands are full with more important tasks, it’s okay to take it easy in translating! (And what am I typing anyway lol) Anyway, thanks for your hard work as always! Good luck!! (๑•̀ㅁ•́๑)૭✧

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      Haha yeah its been tough the past couple weeks 😅 and don’t worry! Im having fun no matter how much I complain 😂honestly, its tough updating as sometimes, none of the sentences make sense when its translated through machine and then I would have to wing it using Rikaikun 😂😅 but I am glad you like my translations! And thanks for not minding the slow updates.
      But no problem! Thanks for reading 😁

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      • hana · September 17, 2017

        It’s good if you’re still having fun then fufufu really I wish I could be of any help but I really don’t know japanese *sobs* Rikai-kun is my bestfriend too whenever I find a doujinshi I really want to understand lol I hope things will get better eventually for you!!! Please stay healthy and happy, and once again thank you~~~ do take times working for the next update, nobody have the right to rush you unless they pay you! Hahaha

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      • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

        Aww thanks for the wishes and such! Same to you! And haha Rikaikun is awesome xD and no problem. You do have a point though. I really am not getting paid xD

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  6. requiemjuno08 · September 17, 2017

    Thank goodness you are safe. Don’t worry, most of us doesn’t mind the slow updates as long as it will be translated until the end.😉 You must prioritize your safety first. By the way thanks for the chapter.😘😘😘

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      Lol thanks. I will probably translate to the end though it will take some time. And no problem! Thanks for reading😁

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  7. Stephanie · September 17, 2017

    Thanks for the chapter. Glad you are safe

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  8. ian · September 17, 2017

    Thanks god you are safe, its must be hard without electric (and wi-fi)
    And thanks for the chapter

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      Lol yeah it was tough xD it was soo hot too. And no problem! Thanks for reading 😁

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  9. Dogecore · September 17, 2017

    Oh god this is slowly turning the the yaoi route lol xD

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  10. Kiriko · September 17, 2017

    That sounds like a difficult ordeal…stay safe!

    まだ十代だというのに皇帝陛下の側室として嫁がなければならないとなれば、それ相応の理由があるのだろうが、暗い部分を全く見せない彼女には好感を抱いていた。= Even though she was only in her teens, for her to have to become a concubine to his Majesty the Emperor, there must have been quite the reason. However, I held favorable feelings towards her, who didn’t expose any of her dark sides at all. (This second part could use some rewording)

    「良くない噂ですか?私はそう言った事に疎くていけません」= “Bad rumors, is it? I am not entirely disinterested in such things.”

    「あら、そうですの?ではお気になさらずに」= “Oh, is that so? Then I shall not mind it.” (Also not entirely sure with this TL……not too great with keigo. ^^;)

    アルマ様は焦ったように取り消しているが、むしろ気になってしまう。= Although Elma-sama seemed to be in a hurry to take back those words, it instead made me curious.

    と、そこまで考えて自分の気持ちの矛盾に唖然とした。= And, having thought that far, I became dumbfounded with my own contradictory feelings.

    自分の気持ちを自覚したことで、心のモヤモヤは無くなったが、どうしたら良いのかは増々分からなくなっていた。= Having become aware of my feelings, the hazy feelings in my heart disappeared, but then I was increasingly at a loss as to what to do.

    Well, these all could use some rewording to make it flow better, but I hope this helps! Good luck!

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 17, 2017

      Thanks soo much! I will fix this as soon as i can! Thanks for the help as always!! 😁

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    • IEatFlame · September 22, 2017

      Be a round about way to say he’s interested
      So
      I have/hold some interest in these matters
      Or maybe
      Something along those lines

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  11. Asato · September 17, 2017

    Yay new chapter and I bet another cute misunderstanding is going to happen because I’m sure that Leo also had feelings for him but since he thinks that Shean don’t want that he distance himself from him!

    As always, thabns for your awesome work in translating this and please be careful with all the hurricane and all that!

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  12. Lola · September 17, 2017

    Um, please don’t stop translating

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  13. yourstrulyrls · September 17, 2017

    Your safety is definitely more important. Glad the power is working again, stay safe and thank you for translating!

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 20, 2017

      Thanks for worrying and for reading! And no problem 🙂 XD Everything is alright… well for now hahah

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  14. RukaMatsu · September 18, 2017

    Aww.. Your situation sounds suck big time. I hope everything’s ok now. As always, thank you for the update.

    Ooh, Shane has realize his true feelings, I hope he will have the courage to tell Leon about his feelings,,

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    • blackmaskedphantom · September 20, 2017

      haha thanks for worrying and reading! and no problem! Everything is alright now,

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  15. mossu-kun (@mossu_kun) · September 18, 2017

    thank you for the update! It’s great that you’re safe. Typhoons are scary sometimes. And I don’t mind waiting for your translations too. You can translate at your own pace and we, readers, will patiently wait for your releases. For me, the fact that you picked this up to translate for non-Japanese readers is already something we should be thankful for. ❤

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  16. C.T. World of Words · September 19, 2017

    glad you’re okay! and sorry for the late help this time! I was overloaded at work these past few days. Here’s my translation help for this chapter! ^___^

    (?) Even though she’s still in her teens, if it turns out that she has to get married as His Majesty the Emperor’s concubine, and though there might be reasons for that, she doesn’t show (me) her gloomy side at all, so I harbor a good impression of her.

    (??) “Are they bad rumors? I cannot be uninformed of what was said.”

    (???) “Oh, is that so? Then, continue on without minding them.”
    -This one is a little fuzzy on “who” is not minding “what”. As I understand it from the context, this seems to be what Aruma-sama means when she said that.

    (????) Aruma-sama, flustered, took back her words, but this instead ended up bothering me.

    (^) Once I thought up until that point, I was dumbfounded by my own contradicting feelings.

    (^^) By becoming aware of my own feelings, the depressed feeling in my heart was lost, but I was becoming increasingly uncertain of what I should do.

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  17. kathysse · September 22, 2017

    Thanks for the chapter ^^

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  18. grassbloop · September 29, 2017

    Thank you for the update! I hope you’re okay after hurricane Irma and everything x.x

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    • blackmaskedphantom · October 7, 2017

      No problem, thanks for reading! and thank youu I am alright! Everything went back to normal but im drowning in a sea of school work. XD

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  19. Lux · December 24, 2017

    Did you drop it? 😦

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    • blackmaskedphantom · December 24, 2017

      No im working on it 😅 honestly life stress. I will try to get a chapter in soon

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